Breath life

"I may be young, but I have been through a lot. I have loved others more than myself, and I’ve been treated like trash. I never wish to be pitied but sometimes it gets to much. I can’t pretend like I’m okay, I can’t forget about the shit I had to deal with, and I can’t build new relationships without revealing my past. It’s a part of me, and the scars are permanent. It’s exhausting trying to keep this strong person people see me as alive. I can’t even begin to express how hard it is for me to open up and show people who I am. When I find someone Im interested in I always manage to blow it. No one wants the damaged chick… No one is willing to wait around for me to break down my walls enough to let them in… and every time I try, I just get hurt again. It’s hard to keep hope, and now I just feel drained. defeated. used. weak. worthless….I can feel myself giving up."

- Free Flow: All I want is to be with some body who will genuinely care about me.